Stories, Thoughts and Snippets
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I am a talented dancer, I work hard, and I am good at what I do, I deserved the place as much or more than any of the girls I danced against. But I have no illusions as to how I got it, and I know that a position like that does not often lead to advancement. The ambition to become a star wrestles, and usually loses with the desire to continue living comfortably and putting away a nest egg. I realize the nest egg never does me any good if I don't employ it towards a dream, but I've seen so many dreams come and go I have a hard time committing to one.
Not only are vegetables expensive, they have such a tendency to spoil before they can be used, they cannot even be frozen and preserved like meats, you buy what you think you will use, and if you don't use it all you may as well have been throwing your money away. It's such a frustrating and pointless loss. How can you plan a spontaneous life around vegetables? If you might jump into a car and disappear for a week, you're going to end up with a fridge full of slimy wilting lettuce and wrinkling mushy tomatoes. You will get home and your most prized foods will have spoiled, you'll have to eat the basics with the longer shelf lives.
Red delicious apples are always a bad investment. You have to get them at just the right time, even a day or two past their peak and they take on a mushy unsatisfying nature, but if you look only for firmness you will end up with badly under-ripe apples, which have such a bland slightly sour flavor as to make you willing to double the price you paid in order to not eat them. Even if you find these apples at the perfect median there is no point in buying more than one or two, because of all apples they keep the least well.
Cheese has always give me problems as well, I'd say it is all over priced to begin with, but even so you still pay for what you get, if you buy a cheap cheese, that is what you will have. But unfortunately an expensive cheese won't last any longer. The only way to save money on cheese is to buy it in bulk, however a large brick of cheese will dry out or grow unwanted molds as quickly as a small block of cheese, so unless you are feeding a great many people with cheese, or intending to eat an inordinate amount yourself, that solution does not help. Add to all of this the fact that cheese is simply not a particularly healthy food, and I wonder why I continue to fight with it at all. I cannot help but remember that it is delicious.
It goes without saying that juices are more expensive than sodas, and furthermore that natural healthy juices are more expensive than those infused with sugar to improve their flavors. Breakfast cereals, canned soups, even syrups, the closer to nature you want to stay, the more you have to pay for the privilege. This dynamic holds true for many walks of modern life.
I've had three abortions, and haven't paid for any myself, but collectively the money paid for these services by the men who were more than happy to foot the bills, amounted to less than a thousand dollars. If I had allowed nature to take its course and had even one of those children, the cost of raising them would have exceeded a thousand dollars in the first month. I suppose one could argue that I could naturally have had the children and then abandoned them, but I don't feel that can be argued to be any closer to natures intent than my having terminated the pregnancies before they stretched my body.