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"Tell me something, Jibril."
"Yes, Miss Anders?"
"Why am I here at all? Why didn't they simply have you do the job."
"Perhaps you are not then so smart as you think. I am too valuable to them, I am a safe house, and I have connections. I know the city, and how to get people out of it secretly, if necessary. If something went wrong on a job and I were captured it would be very difficult for them to replace me. To replace you, they only need to send another recruiter to your college. Where did you go to college?"
"Hunter college, it's in New York."
"I don't care for New York terribly much myself, life is taken too seriously there for my taste."
"If something had gone wrong on this job, you would have been caught along with me, though."
"No, if I was not certain that everything was perfect, when you stepped back out the door you would not have found anyone waiting for you, and I would never have come back to this house, which is owned under a different name."
"That's not particularly reassuring, Jibril." I said, taking another drink of the dark potent coffee.
"It was not meant to be Miss Anders, it was meant to warn you, you should be aware that your own government considers you expendable. Certainly they don't want to lose you after all the training they've given you, but they have planned for the possibility of your loss as an acceptable risk."
"Are you suggesting I quit?"
"No, I cannot tell you what you should do with your life, but I urge you to consider what it means to you to take life, if there is nothing to stop you from losing your own."
"I find the return to be worth the risk."
"I am not sure I have made myself clear, but if that is the only course you see, then I suggest you become very good at what you do, very quickly."
"How did I do today?"
"There was nothing to what you did today, a child could have done it, you did not have to find the man, or plan the job, I took you to a place and pointed you at a door, and you acted. Which in itself you should consider a mistake, you only met me two days ago, you do not know me well enough to trust me to plan the job entirely."
"I looked over the plan, it seemed sound, and it was."
"You should have gone to observe the man yourself, you should have gone to see the location, and planned an escape for yourself, if mine failed."
"There was no time for that."
"If I were you I would not do a job that I did not plan myself, unless I knew I could trust the person who did with my life."
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